Famous paintings come to life in 3D sculptures of nature’s destructive tendencies.
my bed is my throne
I’ve been having fun with journalling and coloured pencils lately.
I hadn’t let fear or anger dictate my actions in quite a while until just now. In a way, it’s good to be reminded how destructive such things are when not properly channeled. They’re destructive not only in regard to their objects, but to everything else. When I’m anxious and scared of losing someone (or having already lost someone) I let it colour my whole world.
I guess that’s the thing about emotions. They’ll expand and expand until you tell them no. If you’re scared enough, for long enough, you risk letting fear become you. Of course there’s the inverse - if you love enough, for long enough, things get similarly saturated. This is good and this is bad, because love is great but it needs guidance, and you can’t guide it when it’s all you are. Being filled past the brim with love might sound nice, but a flood is a flood, no matter whether it’s water or liquid chocolate. The latter might taste nice but your lungs won’t appreciate that if they’re starved for air.
So once again I find myself contemplating this lesson I keep coming back to: how to love well, to love kindly. It’s likely that I’ll never learn the whole thing, but little eruptions like this guide me closer to the mark.
“Act always with love for self and others.
Decide what is important and remember it.
Respond to lethargy with activity. (A walk rarely hurts.)
Do it now, so you don’t have to do it later.
Differentiate between legitimate reasons and lazy excuses.”
“Durkheim divided suicide into four social types; egoistic, anomic, fatalistic, and altruistic assigning the first two to modern, western society while relegating the last two to pre-industrial social orders. However, contemporary studies of female suicidal behavior and depression show that such women exhibit personality characteristics of low self-esteem, passivity, dependence and living vicariously for others which correspond to the behavioral indices of impersonalism, submissiveness, passivity, and obedience that produce the lack of individuation characteristic of Durkheim’s altruistic/fatalistic suicide categories. On this basis, the author suggests that altruistic/fatalistic suicide may even in the modern world be relevant to the explanation of female suicidal behavior, a hypothesis which, if true, would support the contention that “men and women inhibit different social worlds.””
—"Why do women kill themselves?" KK Johnson (1979) (via toxicwinner)